Life: Hiding under my rock

I'm alive, hard to believe I know. Some mornings I wake up and wonder if I'm actually living or just watching life happen around me.

Lets just say it's been a tumultuous month with more downs than ups since being back here. Unpacking and decorating have pretty much come to a halt as we decide what our next steps are.

I knew moving back here was going to be hard, but I didn't expect the issues and stress that I've seen this last month. If you had asked me 2 years ago where I wanted to be I would have quickly said that I wanted to be back here. That was me holding onto something...a memory if you will. A memory that had long passed, a fact that I knew, but I still held onto. It was all I had known for 24 years of my life. It was my stability, no matter how unstable my life actually was here. Deep down I knew that coming back here was not an option, but I held on. More and more reality set in. I knew there would be problems, but I never excepted them to show themselves in this way.

I haven't felt well since I got here, some of it due to the huge altitude change, but also the added stress and fear of being back. My last 2 years here were not happy ones. Indeed some might say they were tragic. It's something I dealt with and will continue to deal with, but being back here makes it that much harder.

I don't want to spend the next 3 years in fear. I can't and I won't, it's not fair to me or Nate. So we are in a holding pattern until things get smoothed out around here. That means happy decorating post and how to organize ideas will have to wait. I will try to post, but I can't make any promises. Right now we are in the process of moving forward. Hopefully it won't take too long as Nate and I are needing a happier month. And maybe...just maybe we'll be back with better, happier news!

Decor: Half bath

In our last house we had a half bathroom downstairs. It wasn't very big, but we chose to have fun with it and painted one wall in a bright blue. We kept the accents neutral with black and white.

We wanted to do something similar in our new half bath because we really liked the black and white pieces that we had. So instead of changing the accent colors we decided to go with a whole new wall color.

Our half bath in this house is very long and narrow, with the toilet facing the sink. Which gives us one very long wall. This is the wall that we will paint.

Pretty much the day after we got here we bought paint samples. I was really leaning towards a bright kelly green, though one aqua blue did make it into the mix. Funny enough when I posted a photo with the paint swatches on my FB wall everyone went straight for the aqua.




The green is Behr's "Formal Garden", it's bright, fresh and exactly what we wanted. The bath rug is a carry over from our last bathroom and is from Target. We also want to update the faucet for the sink, which is actually a nice pedestal sink. And we want to get rid of those awful, cheap looking "Hollywood" dressing room lights. We're still not sure what kind of lighting we'll go with, but a little crystal bling never hurt anyone! Something else that we may end up doing is moving the towel bar (seen in swatch photos). It sits pretty much in the middle of the wall and it's unattractive. If anything we'll get a towel ring and move it closer to the sink. Plus it will free up the wall for art...which I'm thinking I'll keep black and while.

This is probably one of the easiest rooms for us to work on, but I think the paint and new fixtures will make for a fresh new look. Which is great because it will be one of the rooms that anyone coming over will see/use.

Life: Settling in

We're finally in our new home and as of last night we have internet! We got here on Sunday after a long three day drive filled with Kansas and some  car troubles.

Monday and Tuesday were filled with address changes, prepping for our household goods, figuring out what needs to be fixed right away around the house and thinking about paint colors.

Wednesday our household goods showed up. Everything went amazingly smooth due in part to the amazing employees with United Van Lines. If you live in the Ohio/Illinois area we highly, highly recommend Planes United.

We were able to get the living room mostly unpacked Wednesday evening, which felt good. But we are still faced with the daunting task of getting things to fit in the house. This time around we are living in a smaller house, so we won't have room for some of our furniture and other items. That means we'll be getting a storage unit.

Honestly I'd rather get a bigger house, but in the long run that is a silly idea as we may not be staying here for more than the required 3 years. By that time Nate will be able to get out of the military and currently that's the goal. But that's a whole other topic. So yeah, while we would like a bigger house, with a better kitchen, we will make due. We can do a lot of little things around the house to make it better. Along with that we have future  flooring and kitchen reno plans.

I'm working on getting pictures taken as we set up each room so that I can do blog posts about it. Though it may take some time, as the altitude adjustment is kicking my ass. After 24 years of living here and not fully understanding the effects, I finally get what it feels like to have the altitude hand my ass to me daily. All due to the fact that we gained 5500+ feet.

Today there will be more unpacking with a possible trip to IKEA to look at some furniture ideas for our living space. The more the ideas in my head come together and translate well into our home, the better I will feel. I'm ready to have this place be a home and have it decorated the way that we have been dreaming of.